annoying

man, too many things to count and it all sounds depressing. im just sick of all this, never goes anywhere, never go anywhere, never do anything, never talk about anything. im being bored to death and im sick of it. i mean even in psych class. we took a test to see our "arousal levels" or what it takes for you to be scared or happy, and i scored 12 out of 13. thats like a hard core thrill seeker, course i already knew that, but it helps to explain my issue. personally i think this is one of the reasons why im so annoyed at everyone all the time, they're just so boring and i dont really have anything worth saying, or at lest that people want to listen to. the bad part is that i say so little that even when i do speak im often ignored or misunderstood, because surprise surprise, 4 years of being bored to death at school has all but obliterated my social skills, not to mention a great deal of my physical ones as well. it dosent help that im also pretty much useless at everything else, so even if i wanted to do something, anything, i have to jump through hoops like nobodies business. i wanna go ice skating? well thats about 2 weeks of trying that only ends up with me getting sick of not being able to go and giving up. i think my memory has actually been altered to compensate for this. a few days and i dont even remember that something bad happened, and if it did, who cares. its like a nightmare that might have seen scary when you first wake up, but a while later its just as ridiculous as my normal dreams, which are pretty weird, and im almost ashamed to have been scared in the first place.